SOTD – Over the Rhine “Trouble”

Over the Rhine “Trouble”

If you came to make some trouble
Better make it good
Your sexy cocktail hour stubble
Is doing what it should
Looks may be sweet and subtle
I think it’s trouble honey
I think it’s good
If you came to make trouble
Make me a double honey
I think it’s good

Novices have expectations
‘Cause they think they should
Experts have their revelations
Like they knew they would
What may seem complicated
Is overstated downright misunderstood
Love will not be outdated
Maybe placated but it’s got to be good

We’re so precarious with semantics
I think this could be trouble
I think it’s trouble honey
I think it’s good
If you came to make trouble
Make me a double honey
I think it’s good

What may seem complicated
Is overstated downright misunderstood
Love will not be outdated
Maybe placated but it’s got to be good

We’re far too serious
I think we could be
Such nefarious pyromantics

I think this could be trouble
I think it’s trouble honey
I think it’s good
If you came to make trouble
Make me a double honey
I think it’s good

Wednesday Playlist (catchup) – Mix Tape Madness

This one was from January 13th, and I could have sworn I posted it. #goinginsane.

The topic was favorite song from a mix tape an ex had made for you. A few people said that no one had ever made them a mixtape, and that made me sad. They were allowed to submit a song from a mixtape they’d made someone else, IIRC. If they had neither given nor received a mixtape in their lifetime, I guess they didn’t play that week. If that’s the case for you, let me know, and I will make you a damn mixtape. No one should go their entire life without getting a mixtape, for goodness’ sake.

superbadgirl - My submission is the Moody Blues “Story in Your Eyes” #wednesdayplaylist
jeniburns – @superbadgirl my submission is “Underground” by Ben Folds Five #wednesdayplaylist
El_Dickman – @superbadgirl “Diamond Dogs” by David Bowie. #wednesdayplaylist
ieincognito - @superbadgirl In lieu of the warbling of a boy & his 4-track, Sebadoh “Think (Let Tomorrow Bee)” was also full of his angst and earnestness.
Lorizs_tweets - Red Sector A ~ Rush #wednesdayplaylist
H_Wallbanger – @superbadgirl I thought Doors of Your Heart by English Beat was sweet.
Southpaw32 – @superbadgirl I submit Dada “Moon”
narcise – I’m going with I’ll Fall With Your Knife by Peter Murphy. That song still makes me weepy, actually. #wednesdayplaylist
sDonoho – @superbadgirl Fugazi – Waiting Room
arachnophiliac – @superbadgirl I have no exes, so I’ll go with “Love Spreads,” the Stone Roses. @libster77 made me many a mix tape in college.
trmink - @superbadgirl Good Thing – Fine Young Cannibals
sub_english – @superbadgirl “Eric the Half-A-Bee” by Monty Python.
ZSB3 – @superbadgirl RE: Mix tape: I was the loser who never had one made for me or made one for anyone else :(
SgtHotpants – @superbadgirl Of all the wonderful ones my ex @jodv made me, my favorite song on all of them was Nico, Fairest of The Seasons.
_bunny_ - @superbadgirl Never got one, :(, but I did make two at some point: The Wolfgang Press – Shut That Door. I think I did it wrong.
cassiland - @superbadgirl “Crush with Eyeliner” by R.E.M. it was kinda sweet and kinda creepy all at once #wednesdayplaylist
UnclePilot - @superbadgirl “Naughty Girls (Need Love Too)” by Samantha Fox #wednesdayplaylist

Wednesday Playlist – More Catchup

This one from January 20th was “songs about materialism & consumerism” and it looks as if it was sparsely replied to. Queries for songs about drinking and sex always get more replies than this, I wonder what that’s all about?

(Of course there’s a slight possibility that I either missed replies or got distracted and stopped collecting them in the middle of the day. Feel free to add yours in the comments, if that’s the case.)

superbadgirl - It is Wednesday playlist time! This week’s theme is songs about materialism & consumerism. I submit Gram Rabbit’s “American Hookers” Decadence is killing me.  http://blip.fm/~jfgm4

narcise - Lily Allen – The Fear #wednesdayplaylist

thatcesareguy - @superbadgirl “Clown Powder” by Mariachi El Bronx

H_Wallbanger - @superbadgirl Rats by Subhumans

stevodarkly - @superbadgirl Nine Inch Nails’ “Head Like a Hole” is the 1st thing that popped to mind. #wednesdayplaylist

_bunny_ - @superbadgirl William DeVaughn – Be Thankful for What You Got #wednesdayplaylist

Lorizs_tweets - @superbadgirl Money for Nothing ~ Dire Strait #wednesdayplaylist

avandonsel - @superbadgirl “Gone Going,” Black Eyed Peas; “Once In A Lifetime,” Talking Heads; “Gold Digger,” Kayne West. #wednesdayplaylist

p_tea - @superbadgirl “Ladies’ Night in Buffalo” by David Lee Roth, “Rock ‘n Roll Lifestyle” by Cake. #wednesdayplaylist

The_Cyr - @superbadgirl Pink Floyd “Money” and Wu Tang Clan “Better Tomorrow”

The_Cyr - @superbadgirl Oh! And “On the cover of the Rolling Stone” by Dr. Hook. “Life’s Been Good to Me” by Joe Walsh

Wednesday Playlist – Catchup Edition

Cleaning off my desktop and finding random lists of things I meant to post and never did. This looks to be the playlist from 02/03/10, and from the look of it it was “A Song, The Title of Which Describes Your Week So Far” If memory serves, anyhow. Six weeks on, I wonder if anyone can remember why they chose the song they did? (Except for all those who chose songs about hating their jobs, I am just going to presume those still apply)

H_Wallbanger - @superbadgirl Working for the Man by Roy Orbison

ieincognito – @superbadgirl Avoiding Catatonic Surrender by Tim Barry #wednesdayplaylist

thatcesareguy – @superbadgirl “Demon Days”- The Gorillaz, “Driven To Tears”- Sting, “Emotional Abuse”- HorrorPops, “Everything Will Be Alright”- Killers

narcise – “Sad Sexy” by Dirty Three, “Comrades & Friends” by From Monument to Masses, “Weekend Wars” by MGMT #wednesdayplaylist

_bunny_ – @superbadgirl How Heavy This Axe – The Sword #wednesdayplaylist

avandonsel – @superbadgirl “Pink Cloud Tracing Paper” (Asobi Seksu) + “Pieces of What” (MGMT) + “Don’t Fight It” (The Panics) #wednesdayplaylist

hipntrendy – @superbadgirl Let it Snow! by Dean Martin

cbellers – @superbadgirl “Get off my Elevator” by Kool Keith #wednesdayplaylist

p_tea – @superbadgirl “I Want a New Duck” by Weird Al. #wednesdayplaylist

Lorizs_tweets – Missing You ~ Jem #wednesdayplaylist

The_Cyr – @superbadgirl “Take this job and shove it” – Johnny Paycheck

katatomiclabs – @superbadgirl “I Want My Baby…Dead?!” by New Bomb Turks (for the benefit of @ieincognito, who had better get a chuckle)

jamietoon – :Got The Time” – Joe Jackson, “Working for the Weekend” – Loverboy, “Dicegrinder” – Dicegrinder #wednesdayplaylist

@p_tea – I’ve changed my mind. I think “A Collection of Small Furry Animals Gathered Together in a Cave and Grooving With a Pict” by Pink Floyd better captures my week.

superbadgirl – “All Good Things” by the Weepies #wednesdayplaylist

jamesblackwood – Mos Def, “Life in Marvelous Times” #wednesdayplaylist

SgtHotpants – @superbadgirl Beatles “I’m so tired,” Tommoy Roe “dizzy”

SOTD Regina Spektor – Hotel Song

Regina Spektor – Hotel Song

Come in, come in
Come into my world I’ve got to show
Show show you
Come into my bed
I’ve got to know
Know know you

I have dreams of orca whales and owls
But I wake up in fear
You will never be my
You will never be my fool
Will never be my fool

Floaters in my eyes
Wake up in a hotel room
Cigarettes and lies
I am a child, it’s too soon

I have dreams of orca whales and owls
But I wake up in fear
You will never be my
You will never be my fool
Will never be my fool

A little bag of cocaine
A little bag of cocaine
So who’s the girl wearing my dress?
I figured out her number
Inside a paper napkin
But I don’t know her address I wade downstairs
The porter smiles to me a smile
I’ve bought
With a couple of gold coins
A sign that I’ve been caught

I have dreams of orca whales and owls
But I wake up in fear
You will never be my
You will never be my dear
Will never be my dear, dear friend
Dear dear friend, dear dear friend…

A little bag of cocaine
A little bag of cocaine
So who’s the girl wearing my dress
I figured out her number
Inside a paper napkin
But I don’t know her address

Come in, come in
Come into my world I’ve got to show
Show show you
Come into my bed
I’ve got to know
Know know you

I have dreams of orca whales and owls
But I wake up in fear
You will never be my
You will never be my dear
Will never be my dear, dear friend
Dear dear friend, dear dear friend…

SOTD – Tori Amos “Taxi Ride”

Tori Amos “Taxi Ride”

Lily is dancing on the table
we’ve all been pushed too far
I guess on days like this
you know who your friends are
Just another dead fag to you, that’s all
Just another light missing
On a long taxi ride
Taxi ride

And I’m down to your last cigarette and this “we are one” crap
as you’re invading this thing you call love
she smiles way too much but
I’m glad you’re on my side
Sure I’m glad you’re on my side still

You think you deserve a trust fund
Just because you want one
Sure you talk the talk when you need to
I fear the whole world is starting to believe you
Just another dead fag to you that’s all
Just another light missing on a long taxi line
Taxi line

And I’m down to your last cigarette and this “we are one” crap
As you’re invading this thing you call love
She smiles way too much
But I’m glad you’re on my side
Sure I’m glad you’re on my side still

Lily is dancing on the table
We’ve all been pushed too far today
Even a glamorous bitch can be in need
This is where you know the honey from the killer bees
I’m glad you’re on my side
Sure i’m glad you’re on my side
Sure i’m glad you’re on my side still

Got a long taxi ride
Got a long taxi ride

SOTD – Spinnerette “Ghetto Love”

Another band that DaveWWT turned me on to. This means he’s been right twice this year so far, and that’s probably gonna be about his limit.

Spinnerette “Ghetto Love”

Hey now, there now
It’s a game to be played out amongst
Thieves of the heart and the
Whores of the ego

Hey now, there now
Kiss everyone’s ailments
See them rise up, exalt and illuminate

Humanity is a deer in the headlights
The road is covered in blood
Free yourself with a dagger from above
A crossbow of faith

You sold your heart
For the primal experience
Gave up on love for a
Medal malevolent
You fill yourself with
The fire of innocence
The karmic stain will bring you back through the gates again

Oh how I wonder what will become, of us
I’m just a girl out looking for love

You want in me what you see
Is a testament
You never know when you love
What you’ll manifest

I’m Joan of Arc on a mission
Avenge loves death
I’m gonna win
I’ll never give in

SOTD – Psapp “Hi”

Psapp “Hi”

Hi-lo
Get out the abacus and count this
A funny story with a dark twist
The target’s so big that you can’t miss
Me

You’re compulsive
And every page I turn I want more
I never know the next thing in store
’cause you excite me like a locked door
does

Like a limpet
I want to take your voice and drink it
There doesn’t seem to be a limit
To all the things that I could do

I know how I want it to go
I know how I want it to be
Don’t make me think before I speak
or make me hold my horses

Hold tight
We’re saddled up if you can ride right
If you just think it then you’ll be fine
Fingers crossed that it’s the right time
this time

You’re a fat swamp
We can visit for a fun romp
I really want to do the high jump
Taking a risk with do us all some good

I know how I want it to go
I know how I want it to be
Don’t make me think before I speak
or make me hold my horses

I’ve got my eye on the prize (look at their eyes)
My beady eyes are alive (they’re alive)
Although I don’t know what comes next
I will not hold my horses

Hello
Get out the abacus and count me
A funny feeling says I won’t leave
The target’s so big that you can’t miss
me

I know how I want it to go (I want it to go)
I know how I want it to be (I want it too)
Don’t make me think before I speak
or make me hold my horses

I’ve got my eye on the prize (look at their eyes)
My beady eyes are alive (they’re alive)
And though I don’t know what comes next
I will not hold my horses

I know what you’re thinking
I know how you see me
Although it hurts
You’re probably right

SOTD – Fever Ray “If I Had a Heart”

@h_wallbanger turned me onto Fever Ray, and I am pretty much grooving on them. This song is my current spooky favorite. Check them out at feverray.com.

Fever Ray “If I Had a Heart”

this will never end
cause i want more
more, give me more, give me more

this will never end
cause i want more
more, give me more, give me more

if i had a heart i could love you
if i had a voice i would sing
after the night when i wake up
i’ll see what tomorrow brings

if i had a voice i would sing

dangling feet from window frame
will i ever ever reach the floor?
more, give me more, give me more

crushed and filled with all i found underneath and inside
just to come around
more, give me more, give me more

if i had a voice i would sing

How 2009 sounded in my world

First thing I have to do is fess up that this list is heavily edited. You see, when I went to look at the last 12 months of music, I saw this:

Which, while accurate, is also very boring. This was definitely the year of Florence + The Machine in my world, however it’s skewed my list because I actually didn’t start listening to her until November, and then listened to her so exclusively that she blew everything else off the chart. So that’s not an actual reflection of what I was listening to this year, and as such I have edited all F+TM songs from my list. Suffice it to say that I think that album is made of magic and wonderment, and you should have a copy of it. But I will focus on other things.

So, discounting the Florence, my number one song of the year was a surprise:

1. Tactical Sekt – Bring Me Violence – I do love this song, I was just surprised it came in quite so high. Not a lot to say about this one, other than that this was a year of violent emotions for me, and this song spoke to that. It also helped me turn my brain off, and made me speed frequently. Favorite line: “I saw the rage rising in the morning sky.”

2. The Rosebuds – Life Like – This is such a spooky, hollow-sounding song. I got this album free from Paste, and I didn’t really respond to all of it. But I do love this song. It’s about taxidermy. Favorite line: “Consider my life, I’m wild but I’m not free.”

3. The Ting Tings – That’s Not My Name -  The Ting Tings are another band to whose music I don’t respond evenly. I like some of their stuff, some I am “meh” about, and some – like this song – I adore. This was an awesome driving song this year. Favorite line “They call me quiet, But I’m a riot”

4. Maria Taylor – One for the Shareholder – Maria Taylor is one of those sneaky artists, whose music you listen to sort of in the background, and then you suddenly realize it’s crept into your subconscious and you passionately love quite a bit of it. Not a first-listen artist, but something that grows on you until you can’t do without it. This song is about emotionally vacuous fuckwits. Favorite lines:

“There’s no burden that will agonize you
No worry that will weigh you down.
Not the memories that hypnotize you.
You won’t turn around.
You can’t love me ”

5. The Stills – Still in Love Song - I dunno, I think this is just another song about being involved with people when you know you shouldn’t. I sense a theme.

“We were lovers
we were kissers
we were holders of hands
we were make believers”

6. Damien Rice – Woman Like a Man – Jessica gave me this song on a mix CD, and I immediately fell in love with it. I like some other Damien Rice too, but this song I love. It’s so angry and desperate and hostile. It’s about wanting, and how wanting sucks. Favorite line, very sneakily wrapped into the chorus “I’ll get a cheaper ticket next time – ’cause it really wasn’t worth the ride.”

7. Ladytron – Ghosts – I feel like I spent a lot of this year trying to make myself understood by people who are very different from me. And while that’s a good exercise to undertake, and helps me grow in some way (right?) it’s also frustrating. Sometimes you really just want to be around people who get it, and don’t need so much hand-holding. Careening around unintentionally offending people, or feeling as if you are, is exhausting. This one actually turned out to be rather prophetic.

“Now I see you
from the corner
clock strikes
and I know you will be drinking alone

There’s a ghost in me
who wants to say “I’m sorry”
Doesn’t mean I’m sorry.“

8. Anya Marina – Move You – this is another one from a Paste CD. I do like several songs of hers but this one has this wonderful “Where do you where do you where do you where do you where do you get off?” line in it, and that’s basically the subtitling in my brain when I am talking to a lot of people. I love it so.

9. The Shins – Black Wave - You know those hollow, lonely songs that are bigger on the inside than they are on the outside? This is my favorite of those. (Well, except for My Morning Jacket’s Wordless Chorus.) Seriously – they had me at “black breeze.”

In the meadow where the black breeze blows,
Where underneath the waves, you were most alone,
Can you hear a subtle, aching tone?
Through the water, through the Earth, chill the bones.

10. Lucky Soul – Lips Are Unhappy – Shake, shake shimmy, this is just pure perky fluffy love song.

Pretending that everything’s cool,
When I’m twenty seven shades of blue,
And my lips are unhappy without you.

So those were the top 10 songs in my world last year. In some ways they don’t seem to reflect what I was really listening to, because there was a lot of angry industrial stompy music going on most of the time. However, I obviously didn’t listen to any of those songs often enough to get them in the top 10 list – the above are the songs I kept coming back to. I included my top 35 songs in the list below, so if you want some stompy angry industrial, it will be there.

It’s always strange to look back at these lists and think about listening to these songs at different times of the year. What I was doing, how I was feeling, how these songs reflected or enhanced that. It’s been a hell of a year. I really hope that less stuff happens this year. I need a break from emotional overload. Guess we will find out next year at this time how that turned out, huh?

SOTD – Time Killer, Project Pitchfork (And One Remix)

I like this remix much more than I like the original of this song.

Time Killer, Project Pitchfork

go away leave me alone
I feel your presence in my mind
the time seems to stop I set you free
you calm my mind you calm my mind
make my dreams come true – baby
every time it seems to me
that fiction and reality melt together for eternity
liquid words dropping down the stairs
filling the emptiness with sense
you and me on the floor floating on our sensibility

you need a timekiller and you don’t understand
I am like quicksand lick it from my hand
I am your timekiller I let your mind expand
I am like quicksand lick it from my hand

tick tock tick tock madness comes tonight
what’s reality compared to me?
I rest on the bed and I’m sure I slowly get mad
I’m in a state of mind which makes me blind
for the fact that I’m a man
I’m here to stay forever but not today

you need a timekiller and you don’t understand
I am like quicksand lick it from my hand
I am your timekiller I let your mind expand
I am like quicksand lick it from my hand

in my heart is no place for you
and in my mind is no space for you
the exit already melted away
and now there’s nothing left to say

you need a timekiller and you don’t understand
I am like quicksand lick it from my hand
I am your timekiller I let your mind expand
I am like quicksand lick it from my hand

Wednesday Playlist – Supernatural Edition

superbadgirl – It’s Wednesday Playlist time! Today’s list is songs about the supernatural and I submit the Eagle’s “Witchy Woman”

violentecstasy - @superbadgirl The Cure’s Lullaby, Concrete Blonde’s Bloodletting #WednesdayPlaylist

butterflyfish_ – @superbadgirl Yay, Eagles! :-) All I’m coming up with right now is The Cars’ “Magic.” But I like that, so I’ll go w/ it.

narcise - Ghostwriter by RJD2 #wednesdayplaylist

H_Wallbanger – @superbadgirl Haunted by the Pogues, preferring the version off the Sid & Nancy soundtrack but any of the several versions are good.

drew_w – @superbadgirl Rage doing the Ghost of Tom Joad.

UnclePilot – @superbadgirl (Ghost) Riders In The Sky by Johnny Cash #wednesdayplaylist

gatewaygroupie – @superbadgirl Helen Reddy’s “Angie Baby” http://tr.im/HN16.

p_tea - @superbadgirl The Siege and Investiture of Baron Von Frankenstein’s Castle at Weisseria by BOC #wednesdayplaylist  Although Flaming Telepaths, also by BOC has to come in a close second for awesome in the category today. #wednesdayplaylist

The_Cyr – @superbadgirl RAtM’s version of “The Ghost of Tom Joad” and Robert Johnson’s “Me and the Devil Blues”, The Flaming Lips “The Waterbugs Attack the Policeman” or whatever they call it.

sub_english – @superbadgirl Blue Oyster Cult’s “Don’t Fear the Reaper.”

jeniburns - @superbadgirl I’ll have more, but “Low Red Moon” by Belly comes to mind right off hand. Love that song. Oh, and “The Witches Song” by Juliana Hatfield.

jamesblackwood – @superbadgirl All of Aphrodite Child’s album 666, but in particular I’m feeling The Beast, The Lamb, and The Four Horsemen #wedplaylist

avandonsel – @superbadgirl Silver Springs, Fleetwood Mac

hipntrendy – @superbadgirl Transylvanian Concubine by Rasputina ;-) for #wednesdayplaylist

_bunny_ – @superbadgirl Kristin Hersh – Your Ghost #wednesdayplaylist

Lorizs_tweets – @superbadgirl Dead Man’s Party – Oingo Boingo #wednesdayplaylist

arachnophiliac – Cuz @thatcesareguy prodded me to listen to this album last week: “Voodoo Lady” by Live, Also, “Welcome, Ghosts” Explosions in the Sky. #wednesdayplaylist

ZSB3 – Ghost Town by Shiny Toy Guns #wednesdayplaylist

stevodarkly - @superbadgirl Oh oh oh! “Voodoo” by Godsmack. #wednesdayplaylist

Joule – @superbadgirl I put a spell on you, the screamin jay hawkins version, of course #wednesdayplaylist

Wednesday Playlist – Songs to Stay Home To

The truly heinous weather of the last few days has got me in serious nesting mode. I know I can’t stay home all winter, but this week has not seen me inspired to leave the house at all. It just seems very cosy to stay here at home with chihuahuas and blankets and bad TV and books and peanut butter sandwiches. But if you’re going to stay home, you have to set the mood – thus we have a need for a Songs to Stay Home To* playlist. I know I say this almost every time, but I think this one might be my favorite so far.

I’ve added the songs that I had in my library – some of the others aren’t things I own, so sorry about that if yours didn’t make the list. As always, I’ve banned all Yacht Rock.

Thanks for playing along, hope you enjoy!

kopper – @superbadgirl The Spaceshits “Winter Dance Party” LP

gatewaygroupie – @superbadgirl If I was at home, I’d be listening to Sufjan Stevens and feeling bad about not believing in god. #wednesdayplaylist

narcise – @superbadgirl I’m going with Count Basie on that one, for sure.

stevodarkly – @superbadgirl Wed. playlist: I’m gonna have to go with Loreena McKennitt. 2nd place: The Charlie Brown Christmas CD, but not over and over.

hipntrendy – @superbadgirl Russ loves Ministry’s ‘Psalm 69′ , me – I listen to the Swimf@n soundtrack over and over. do those work? #wednesdayplaylist

The_Cyr – @superbadgirl Theivery Corporation makes for a restful night home.

_bunny_ – @superbadgirl The Sundays. Still love that first album. #wednesdayplaylist

cbellers – @superbadgirl Zero 7 is perfect stay at home sexy time music

p_tea – @superbadgirl I’m still a sucker for Pink Floyd when it’s dark and the weather is frigid. #wednesdayplaylist

hipntrendy – @superbadgirl okay, I found an album (all one artist) that I listen and love all the songs. New Order – Best Of New Order

narcise – Since it’s my b-day, i’ll choose more #wednesdayplaylist entries: Mazzy Star, Brasil 66, Martin Denny, Portishead, Cat Stevens, yachtrawk.

cassiland – @superbadgirl Thelonious Monk.. great music for house cleaning, cooking, or curling up and crafting and reading all day. #wednesdayplaylist

H_Wallbanger – @superbadgirl For an artist I like to listen to in winter, I’ll say Sigur Ros. Their first two albums are perfect for watching the snow.

trmink – @superbadgirl With out a doubt, Jolie Holland. Add a WoodWick candle, premium Scotch, and a thick book.

jamesblackwood - Nina Simone, Leonard Cohen, or Neko Case #wednesdayplaylist

gatewaygroupie - @superbadgirl If request lines are still open, Laine WWT twitter puts in a vote for Pink Floyd’s Wish You Were Here. #wednesdayplaylist

*please do not confuse this with a Songs to Slit Your Wrists To playlist, or Songs to Get Sexed Up To playlist. I know they’re similar, but there are subtle differences.

Liars and the SOTD – Tracy Chapman “Tell it Like it is”

This album, along with Poe’s “Haunted” and more recently F+TM’s “Lungs” is on my list of all-time favorite albums. The ones where every song you listen to you think “OK, I am totally going to replay this song when it’s over.” and then the next song comes on and it’s so amazing that you have to listen to that one instead of re-listening to the first one.

Most of these albums come from places of brokenness and disenchantment with the world, which is why I identify with them. But to me they’re also cries for understanding and calls to do better with yourself, be a better sort of person. They’re from people who are heartbroken and disillusioned, and they point out how the world and people surrounding them have failed them—yet they also hold a sort of yearning for a world that’s not like this, where the people are good to each other, and good to them.

I feel like lately I have been dealing with way too many liars. Whether they’re lying inadvertently because they don’t understand themselves or lying blatantly because they’re assholes with shit to cover up, I am not always sure. Why they do it isn’t important, the net effect is that I don’t really trust anyone lately to tell the truth about anything. And I hate that. I hate that because my natural state is to believe people when they tell me things. I rarely lie. I will either tell you the truth or change the subject, and I assume most other people are the same. And I can’t assume that as much as I do. I don’t really know how to be super selective about it either. With me it’s either “honesty filter 100% on” or “you dirty motherfuckers, stop talking to me with your lying bullshit mouths.” And these are people who not only lie about what they’re doing, they lie about who they are. And that’s the most disappointing kind to discover, the kind where someone you thought was one kind of person – someone who took the time and trouble to paint that picture of themselves for you – is really not that kind of person at all. It makes me feel stupid and naive, it disappoints me, it makes me feel all alone in the world with a bunch of people wearing carnival masks.

I know that there’s no solution to this. People are how they are, and a lot of people need to lie to themselves and each other,  just in order to survive and maintain their internal images of themselves. I get it.  I am glad in some ways I am not one of them, but I am also lonely for other people who tell the truth, even when it’s harsh and ugly. I would rather hear about and deal with what’s really happening around me than have to sift through a huge pile of someone else’s horseshit to find the kernel of reality in there.

People give me grief for my negativity, but honest negativity will always be preferable to me than rosy-cheeked bullshit optimism and self-delusion. And I refuse to apologize for that, because no matter how it pains me, mine is the more authentic reality and I will not give it up.

Tracy Chapman “Tell it Like it is”

Say it say it say it
Tell it like it is
Say it say it say it
Tell it like it is

What breaks your heart
What keeps you awake at night
What makes you want to break down and cry

But say you’ll never turn your back
Say you’ll never harden to the world
Say you’ll never try to still the rhythms in your breast
Say you’ll never look at the evil among us and try to forget
Say you’ll tell it like it is

Say it say it say it so everyone can hear
Say it say it say it tell it like it is

What breaks your heart
What keeps you awake at night
How your anger and grief
Make you want to cry out
Oh and tell it like it is

But say you’ll never close your eyes
Or pretend that it’s a rosy world
Say you’ll never try to paint
What is rotten with a sugarcoat
Say you’ll talk about the horrors you’ve seen and the torment you know
And tell it like it is

Say it say it say it
So no one can forget
Say it say it say it
Tell it like it is

What breaks your heart
What keeps you awake at night
What makes you want to break the ties that silence and bind
And tell it like it is

Say you’ll never cover your ears and close your mouth
And live in a silent world
Say you’ll only run as far or as fast as you need to be secure
Say that then you’ll tell the truth
When a lie could cross your lips
And tell it like it is

Say it say it say it – Say it say it say it
Say it say it say it – Say it say it say it
Say it say it say it – Say it say it say it
Say it say it say it – Say it say it say it

Here’s the song, but ignore the video which seems to be just a bunch of weird birds.

The Friday Five – Bands We’d Like to See Again

So tonight is the last show ever for our friends’ band, Stella Mora. All good things come to an end—usually too soon—and we’re very sorry to see them go. But this sad state of affairs led to this listing of other bands we’d love to see once more in concert, if only they were still touring.

I would absolutely love to see Oingo Boingo one more time, that was one of the most energetic shows I’ve ever been to in my life. October Project I would love to see again, just so that I could properly appreciate what I was experiencing, they’re one of those bands I got much more into once I had seen them live, then never had the chance again. Anyway, here are the rest of the results from this week’s Friday Five, thanks for playing along! (see what I did there?):

• superbadgirl (that’s me!) Mine are Oingo Boingo, Dead Can Dance, October Project, Nirvana and Cocteau Twins. #fridayfive
• tungmobi - @superbadgirl Pale Saints, Lush, Cocteau Twins, Catherine Wheel,Genesis (with Peter Gabriel)
• gw10101 – @superbadgirl, Ned’s Atomic Dustbin, Jesus Jones, Soul Coughing, Depeche Mode (wilder years), The Cure (disintegration era)
• The_Cyr – @Superbadgirl Skynrd (original band), Led Zep, Kansas, Creedence Clearwater Revival, Guns n Roses (original band)
• narcise – led zepplin, django reinhardt, janice w/big brother & holding company, pixies (just missed reunion), jesus and mary chain #fridayfive
• H_Wallbanger – @superbadgirl The Clash, Fats Waller, Duke Ellington, Thin Lizzy, Massive Attack
• stevodarkly – @superbadgirl #fridayfive The Police, the Beatles, Dead Can Dance, Led Zepplin and … I do miss local guys Todd on LSD.
• UnclePilot – @superbadgirl #fridayfive The Seatbelts, Led Zepplin, The Miles Davis Quintet, Crowded House, Soul Coughing
• El_Dickman – @superbadgirl Ummm… Queen, Led Zepplin, Collaborateur, Bel Canto, Beatles #fridayfive
• cbellers – @superbadgirl Morphine, Pale Divine, Dance Hall Crashers, Chemical Brothers, Lords of Acid
• trmink – @superbadgirl New Pornographers, The Kinks, Harvey Danger, Sleator-Kinney and a second on Thin Lizzy
• _bunny_ - @superbadgirl Gang of Four, AC/DC with Bon Scott singing, Queen, James Brown, The White Stripes #fridayfive
• sub_english – Dead Can Dance, Joy Division, The Clancy Brothers, Billie Holiday, Cocteau Twins. #fridayfive