…Heaven
So I finally got my creative ass in gear and posted something new over at The Grand Conspiracy today. I think a lot of us have been thrown in the creative doldrums over the holiday season – I was uninspired because everyone else was uninspired, and also my brain was busy with other things. Usually what I write comes to me in a mental image, or a really clear idea. “What if blah blah blah?” my brain asks me, and then I explain to my brain what would happen in that situation, and then I write it down.
Lately I’ve been pondering a lot of things about love and connection. Lost loves most of all. I think because there’s this monumental, eternal quest to find the person who fits you, who loves you, who makes you feel safe – I always wonder what happens if you find that person only to lose them? I read and hear so many stories of loss – every day is filled with so many deaths. How does anyone stand it? How does anyone find their person and then survive the loss of that person? It’s all quite beyond my limited emotional scope I think, to conceive of going on in the face of that. Empty space where once stood someone you love – how is that to be borne?
I’ve also been listening frequently to the Watson Twins cover of The Cure’s “Just Like Heaven.” (It’s on the True Blood soundtrack, which is pretty awesome in its entirety.) When the Cure does the song it’s bouncy and driven. When the Watson Twins do it, it’s mournful and full of loss.
And upon reading them more closely I realized that the lyrics can be rather nonsensical or they can be lonely – and here they’re lonely. And the line “I found myself alone, alone, alone above a raging sea.” lingered with me particularly for the first time in the 20+ years I’ve been loving that song. And then I realized why someone was alone above a raging sea, and how sad it was.
Anyway. I think we’re going to a once per month posting schedule over there, which I hope to be able to maintain. Hope you enjoy the piece.
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God, I love that Cure song! But damn, you’re right, I never noticed how lonely the lyrics could be, the tragedy lurking in there. Nice job of being perceptive enough to extract some inspiration from that, and doing something really cool with it.