Me and the Plastic Wrap

October 7th, 2009

You know how sometimes something so bad and traumatic happens to you that you can’t believe the rest of the world is still carrying on with their business? When your life has been so unimaginably, possibly irrevocably, altered and everyone else tra-la-las around as if there’s nothing going on? I have that right now. I am not even sure the rest of you are real. You are certainly making a lot of noise, and doing a lot of things, but it’s all just buzzing.

Filed under: personal ramblings | Comments (5)

5 Responses to “Me and the Plastic Wrap”

Zansetsue on October 8, 2009 1:14 pm
Though I am sure it will sound like buzzing, I do know exactly what you mean.

People will give you a lot of advice at these times about how to focus on the positive, or to take things one minute at a time, or whatever, and yeah it can work I guess…

But it doesn’t work during those times where you’re suffering truly extraordinary trauma. And whether that trauma is one devastating event, or a series of bad events that add up to your life genuinely being 95% suckage, if it uses up all your resources and keeps demanding more, there’s no easy solution.

Try to hang on. You -are- loved, and I’m thinking about you. And know that nothing ever stays the same, good or bad, things will change into other things. Stay as aware as you can, so you can see the changes when they come and grab on to the ones that can work for you. And ask for help if you need it (if it makes it easier, think of asking for help as giving someone else the chance to be strong).
Stevo Darkly on October 8, 2009 11:36 pm
I wish I could help in some way. You’ve been helpful to me in the past, just by sharing your perspective and analysis and empathy.

You know, if there’s a disconnect between the way you feel and the way the rest of the world acts, it’s probably related to how much you are willing to share your situation with the rest of the world.

Not that all things are easy to share, or can be shared with just anyone.

But if you can identify someone you can share this with, maybe you should.

Anyway, I hope you are able to get through this swiftly.
Stevo Darkly on October 8, 2009 11:59 pm
[My comment disappeared. I'm wearing a wrist brace that sometimes hits the keyboard and makes weird things happen, so I'll try to repeat what I said.]

I wish I could help. You’ve helped me in the past with your perspective and analysis and empathy.

You know, if there is a big disconnect between the way you feel inside and the way your outside world carries on, maybe it’s because you haven’t shared your situation with your people in the outside world. They haven’t had a chance to react to your situation properly.

Not that all things can be shared readily. Or can be shared with just anyone. But if you can identify someone that you can share your situation with, maybe you should.

At any rate, I am hoping you are able to get through this swiftly.

Let me know if I can do anything.
SuperBadGirl on October 9, 2009 6:50 am
Your comments were being auto-spammed, Steve. Should be corrected now.

And thanks to both of you. This is just one of those unshareable, unfixable, unbearable things. There’s absolutely no point in discussing it until/unless a solution can be found, because all it will do is elicit sympathetic nods and lip-pursing, while no answer or comfort is to be had. It just sucks. But I do thank you both for the offer(s) to help.
Dim Reaper on October 11, 2009 6:43 am
I saw this post a couple of days ago, but since I was in the middle of nowhere I couldn’t get a good enough signal to post here.

I really do hope that things turn out well for you and I also hope that you find someone to confide in – whether it be real world or online.

Take care of yourself, and know that there are lots of us lurking around if you need us.