Comments on: Fun. It’s a Funny Thing.

By: SuperBadGirl

SuperBadGirl — Sun, 24 Aug 2008 03:49:25 +0000

I also think there’s a distinct possibility that if I didn’t hate my work situation with such a flaming, fiery vengeance, I might have less aggression to pass on to my weekend revelry. When you’re pissed off and ready to kill someone during the day it’s hard to turn that off and chill out a few hours later.

Hopefully that will be somewhat lessened once I get my department fully staffed and some other changes occur. Fingers crossed!

By: Zansetsue

Zansetsue — Sun, 24 Aug 2008 02:33:10 +0000

Oh well that sounds good! Especially about the bartender looking out for you. I love it when people do caring things like that. :)

I just heard, “I have to drug myself to do this thing that’s supposed to be fun,” and I go, “Uh….ok that doesn’t sound right.” But now I get what you’re saying. And I have no idea where I’d hang out in this town if I could get away at nights, so you’re certainly way ahead of me there.

By: SuperBadGirl

SuperBadGirl — Sat, 23 Aug 2008 23:18:14 +0000

Thanks for the gentle reminder, and yes I am careful. I take an extremely low dose of lorazepam and it’s the same dose I’ve take for years, so I am aware of the effects both with and without alcohol. You know me, even my good times are relatively uptight. ;-)

What’s funny is that the bartender at this bar is not only a great bartender, but an all-around great guy. And at one point in the evening I picked my glass up and found I was drinking club soda instead of alcohol. I looked over at him and he said something like “Who looks out for you, baby?” with a wink. That’s one of the reasons I’ve fallen so in love with hanging out there, like Todd and most of his friends.

And yes, I know there’s no shame in not wanting to hang around with teeming throngs of random drunks. (You’re definitely not going to find me hanging out at the ballpark, or some outdoor music festival.) Really, for the last 10 years I haven’t even given myself grief about my naturally introverted/misanthropic tendencies. My social needs were minimal, I fulfilled them adequately with little to no effort. However within the last year or so it’s become clear to me that I really need to work on having a “normal” social life. One that involves other people, in real-time, in the analog world. And sometimes that consists of hanging out at the bar, because that’s where my friends hang out.

Truth be told, it’s funner than I thought it would be. I like the people-watching, I’ve met lots of nice people, I’ve gotten closer to some people who I only ever saw once or twice a year at Todd’s parties. It’s mostly good. It’s just that I need to practice more, and expand my comfort zone. Not that I am ever going to turn into a barfly, but being able to successfully navigate my way in whatever social waters I find myself; (even with a bunch of random drunks when necessary) that’s a beneficial life skill to acquire.

By: Zansetsue

Zansetsue — Sat, 23 Aug 2008 20:30:18 +0000

Also, I don’t think there’s anything wrong with being a person who doesn’t enjoy being in a large group of drunken people. :) Personally, I loathe it. It’s possible that you don’t loathe people in general, just the ones you’re forced to spend time with that don’t value the same things you think are important.

By: Zansetsue

Zansetsue — Sat, 23 Aug 2008 20:23:26 +0000

Yikes. I know you know this but I feel obliged to say it anyways. Please be careful with the mixing of the benzos and the booze. That’s not a good combination unless you’re trying to emulate your favorite dead rock star. I know you’re smart so I don’t have to explain the chemistry to you, but when doing it, remember Sue is out there saying to be really really careful.

Otherwise, I’m glad you had fun. You deserve it.