2nd goal accomplished then

May 29th, 2006

Wow – talk about emotionally draining. But now, The Amber Spyglass is finished, and my eyes are all swollen, and I have to decide whether to shower and face the world, or just sit here all pajama’d up and wallow in aloneness and introspection.

You know, there’s a feeling of isolation in the summer that I don’t get in the winter. In the wintertime, your home is closed up against the cold, but heated and warm and cozy. All the activity and glow is inside, and even when you’re alone you’re still wrapped in something that keeps you away from the stillness and cold outside. It’s solitary but safe.

But in the summer, all the activity and warmth and life is out there, and the cold and stillness is in here. And the space is the same, same closed doors and windows, same couch and rugs and bed and computer, but the feeling is one of isolation, and loneliness, instead of protection.

Oh, and I forgot, third goal accomplished, I am taking the acrylic painting class at the artist’s guild, instead of the drawing class at COCA. Now I just have to go sign up for it. But the Loop will be crazy busy today with nuts who enjoy hot weather – so some other time this week sounds OK for me.